Monday, July 29, 2013

Much Ado About Uncertainty

Oh hey, it looks like I have a blog. How about that?

Since my last update, a lot has changed. Most, not for the better. There were/are a few good things though, so, maybe I'll start with that:

1) I quit drinking.
    I've noticed for a while that drinking has not really done anything beneficial in my life. Sure, I've met some great friends at parties, had some fun times drinking, but as of late and for the past while I've been using booze as an incredible crutch any time anything too overwhelming could happen. So I'm cutting it out. So far I've been sober for a bit over a month, despite having some fucking terrible things happen that have made me want SO bad for a drink that I even pretended I was drinking through text messages just to attempt that same loose-ness/lack of feeling. It didn't really work, but I realized I can convince most of my friends that I was drunk just by saying a few words. Regardless, I'm not going to be drinking for the forseeable future. At least not until I have some things more together and I can actually see myself using booze as it's intended and not as a way to waste a whole day.

2) I have a new job.
    I quit my retail management job of the past nearly three years when my superiors got moved around and decided to null-and-void my contract of sorts that was established when I transferred to that particular store. Now, I'm doing tech support for a bit more money, and I have a LOT more free time to work on things. Huzzah!

3) I've been doing some actual graphic design work.
    At my new job, one of my coworkers is hiring me to do some signage and design for their store logo. It's the second or third most fun I've had in a while. Haven't been paid yet though, so I'm trying not to get too ahead of myself.

4) I've lost some weight.
    With the booze not keeping me in beer-gut land, I've been able to focus more on my own health and get some things sorted out. With that comes weight loss. I'm hoping to lose a total of forty-five pounds before my Birthday.

As for the not so good/fucking terrible things, they are many. And honestly I don't want to get too into it or I'll just start bawling and not write anything at all.
I don't think I'm ready to update anything else.